Day 5 - What a fail of a day.

While the day started ok it quickly degraded.
The laptop I thought was fully charged was 17% charged. My exam was that day which didn't go well and I didn't get to review the material like I planned due to the lap top dying. I almost missed it since due to my online student status they ignored to give me the room number of where the final was going to take place.
FedEx claimed to be open until 11pm but it turned out to be 9:30pm so I couldn't pick up a package I wanted. I was out of cat food. Dog was in the crate more than normal due to my day of insanity. Cats pooped outside the litter box. Our front yard is full of weeds and smells like cat piss since there are a family of cats living under the porch whom I am still hoping to "Trap Neuter Release". Sigh.
And then I failed at vegan. At work they brought it pizza and in all honesty I just didn't feel like explaining why I couldn't eat it.
I felt like crap afterwards. I was kind of surprised about how bad I felt. It did feel like a failure. I didn't feel bad because I was eating something that most likely came from factory farm tortured cows - felt bad because I couldn't stick to a rational, conscious decision. I was mad that I let some sort of self imposed peer pressure affect my decisions. No one would have actually cared.
Tomorrow is another test. Our managers are taking us out for lunch since it's end of the summer programs that I am part of. I checked the restaurant and it looks like there are possible vegan options. I am hoping to do better.
I am still amazed how good I feel for eating vegetarian. I feel actually lighter. It's not completely reflected in my actual weight, but I just don't feel bloated and stuffed. Even after eating fake hotdogs, tater tots and more fake meat, I felt full - but still not bloated. That feeling in itself makes it worth sticking with the vegan plan.